Who is Jesus to You?
Jessica’s story…
Who is Jesus to you?
Let your salvation flow.
Lead us to repent.
We confess to you save us from our sin.
Jesus oh Jesus
There is grace in Jesus
There is hope in Jesus
There is love in Jesus
Jesus oh Jesus.
Set our hearts free.
Take away the pain.
Restore our lives again
Jesus oh Jesus
There is life in Jesus.
There is peace in Jesus.
There is joy in Jesus
Jesus oh Jesus.
Jesus is the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. I truly know what it means to be saved. I have this salvation in my heart – not just in my mind and with empty words coming out of my mouth. I have experienced the saving grace and mercy of the Lord Jesus more times than I can count.
I should be dead. When my mom was pregnant with me she was so sick that she almost died more than once. She had to stay in the hospital the whole nine months. She was only allowed to come home for a few hours on the weekend. The doctors told her every day that she should have an abortion because there was no way that I would be born alive. My Mom feared the Lord and decided to take a risk and she gave birth to me.
I grew up in a violent and abusive alcoholic family. My father was in and out of prison and my mother was sick, and we were very poor. I was often raped at a very young age and throughout my childhood as a young girl.
I have committed many crimes, been in many fights and I almost committed murder. I have done many drugs at a high level and have been involved in drug trafficking. I have had many sexual and homosexual relationships. I have been involved with witchcraft and the dark powers. I have had to deal with an anger problem that could have turned deadly at any moment because I couldn’t control myself or my attitudes. My life before Jesus was a horror worse than any R rated film that you can imagine.
The interesting thing about all of this is that I grew up in a Baptist church. I knew deep in my heart that one day I would serve God and be a pastor or a missionary. I did a lot of extra work at the church and I volunteered my time there. My mom got so angry because I would spend all of my free time in the church. I took the preaching to heart and I loved God with my whole heart. But I didn’t really know Jesus. I only knew a religious routine, a little tiny bit of Jesus. I didn’t know how real he could be and how powerful the message of the Cross really can be. I didn’t find that out until some years later.
I cried every night that God would save me from my family, and from life. But there was no miracle and my life got worse. When I was 15 my Granny died and my parents got divorced. My Dad left and then was in prison again.
I visited a different church called Dove World Outreach Center. I started going to that church because I saw something different and I was unsatisfied from the Baptist church. I was accused by my family and coworkers of being in a cult and I was forbidden to go to that church, so I stopped going to church all together.
So I went back to my old life, a fast track to Hell. Deep down in my heart I knew that God was gonna do it and he was gonna save me – but this didn’t stop me from living a life of sin and death. I would talk to God in the middle of the drugs and everything going on around me – as if my life was all fine and my world was in perfect order. My Mom found out about the kind of life that I was living and she threw me out of her house. And I was alone – to face the world… for three years.
At the end of the three years I was finished. One night I prayed, but this time it was different. I cried to God with my whole heart. I said to God, “Please God, save me. I don’t want to do this anymore. Please God, save me and I will serve you with my whole heart –just get me out of this mess and off of the drugs.”
Some days later I got kicked out of my apartment because of all the drugs and parties and I had not paid the rent for eight months. My Mom picked me up and told me I could live with her until I got back on my feet. Right away I felt a change. I knew the drugs were over and this life that I had lived was just a thing of the past.
About a week later on a Friday night I went back to this church – Dove World Outreach Center and I got really saved. God spoke such of a powerful word over my life and I decided that I was gonna give it all. Soon after that I went the first time to Germany for three months and God really opened up the doors in my life for the calling, the vision, and for true salvation.
I had a lot of counseling and have experienced a lot of healing and freedom. I know that this only came because Jesus is real. I did not try to work these things out myself or try to pretend that my life was in order. I was hurting and in very bad shape. I needed Jesus. He was my only hope. I believed that He died on the cross for me – to save me, to forgive me and to heal me. I grabbed a hold of that with my whole heart. I did the best I could do to obey the leaders that God had put over me. I have seen from one day to the next how God has opened doors in my life and put me into a place and a position that I would have never dreamed about.
I am happy and fulfilled, but that is not enough. I want to reach out to the people that are hurting, especially to the women of Islam and tell them about Jesus, that he is real. He is not just a religious Sunday morning thing, but he is alive and waiting right now to save, heal and forgive.
The Bible says that if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation- the old is gone and the new has come. This is the truth. When Jesus comes in you will never be the same again.
Give him a chance. He is your only hope.
Jessica
